It’s Only Been an Hour And I Really Miss Her

I just said goodbye to my mom after a wonderful vacation of surprising my cousin for her 25th birthday several days ago. My mom and I had a great time, and much like many vacations we were steadily busy with events (birthday celebrations) and going to  “must go to” stores. I was really blessed. However, I have realized that I am homesick and have been for quite some time. I miss sleeping in my own room, my own bed, with my dog, and having more than enough quality time with my mom and dad. Therefore, this trip was not long enough for mom-daughter time. My mom is one of my best friends and I really appreciate her, even the times when she calls me out or says mother-like things. Such as, “Don’t forget to…” and things like that. But even when she acts like my mom or says things that mom’s say, I still love her and respect her. She has gone through so much in her life, of which several things I have learned from. She is a great mom and always tried to do what was best for me. It’s only been an hour since her flight took off, but I really miss her.

Sometimes I wish I had more than enough money to know what to do with, because I would plan weekend visits to see one another or to go places, just me and her. But I don’t have that much money right now, but maybe one day I will.   

I love my mom! She’s the best mom (and only mom)
I’ve ever had!

2010: Great Expectations

As the end of a year approaches, I find myself and others reflecting on the current year and making plans and goals for the year to come. Sometimes dreams and visions get pushed aside throughout the year, but as a new year begins those dreams and visions sparkle and shine. Again hearts are captured and desires are stirred up, giving hope that something better will come for that new year.

It's New Years Eve and the commercials on TV encourage me to think about this past year and to make new goals for the new year. I am pleased with the things that I have done in 2009 and I look forward to 2010 with great expectations.

Last year was filled with lots of love and being patient for the next step in missions in my life.

As 2010 begins (tomorrow), I have great expectations for things in my life to unfold. It is hard for me to explain why I feel this way, and why I believe that things are going to unfold. The best way I can explain it is a feeling of anticipation in my spirit and I am standing on the promises God’s given me. I am really excited to see how God orchestrates His plans for my life throughout the year.

Home Is Where Your Heart Is

Home is ultimately not about a place to live but about the people with whom you are most fully alive. Home is about love, relationship, community, and belonging, and we are all searching for home. --- Soul Cravings by Erwin Raphael McManus

I am back home again. Christmas has come and gone and 2010 is just around the corner. It feels so surreal. It's always nice to be home even though I miss my friends in YWAM. While involved in YWAM I meet a lot of people from all over the world, but by the end of a school many of those people I will probably never see again. It's kind of depressing, but I have hope because in March I will be going back to YWAM Denver to join staff with 10 or more of my classmates. I will be signing a contract for a year. I may be there longer but I am talking it a year at a time. Right now I am not sure what types of jobs I will be doing, but I will know soon enough. Some of the jobs that I could be doing are the following: childcare, hospitality, housekeeping, helping out in the kitchen for meal preparations, miscellaneous personnel jobs, working directly with a school/disciplining students, and many other jobs. I will be working from 9 am-5 pm, Monday through Friday which leaves no time for another job. I will have several perks like being given vacation time, being with friends who are like family, etc. The biggest perk is doing what I love: serving people and loving people.

I am so excited for this next step in my life. Not only is Denver, Colorado like my home away from home, but I will be doing the thing that I have been wanting to do for the past 3 years --> to be a full time missionary. However, it is bitter-sweet to move out of my parents house and live almost 1,000 miles away from home. Nothing will ever take that feeling of love, comfort, family, and peace like being in the place where I grew up; the place filled with many memories of which I call home.

VIdeo Blog # 6 - A Simple Update

In this Video Blog I talk about the busy months I've had working, where I work and what I do. I also talk about my near future plans.

UPDATE: on the baby Robins (Greedy & Williena Robinz) also included in this video!

Watch and Enjoy!

:-)

Making Dream Come True

My 24th birthday is tomorrow and I was trying to think of what I wanted to do on my birthday.
Many things came to mind like: go shopping, go on a romantic date, hang out with friends, go bowling with friends, etc. However, I am trying to save money and I do not have a significant other right now to go on a romantic date with. Also, I have to work. So I thought about what would make me happy... getting up early, getting the most out of my day, take some pictures of the beautiful scenery that's around me, work out and spend time with family. And that's exactly what I am going to do! :-)

I can't just sit around waiting for my dreams to come true, so I am going to make my dreams come true by doing what makes me the most happy for my birthday. And no, I'm not going to go out and find a boyfriend to go out on a romantic date. But I will do everything that is practical and cost efficient. :-)

Greedy and Williena Robinz

Sitting in the windowsill


Williena and Greedy resting where I sleep



Bath time!!!

Day 1: Looking for food

through this experience. It was bitter-sweet to let them go, but I knew it was best for them to be where they were intended to be - in the wild.

Right In The Middle

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am hopeful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it is painful
But patiently, I will wait

I will move ahead, bold and confident
Taking every step in obedience
While I'm waiting
I will serve You
While I'm waiting
I will worship
While I'm waiting
I will not faint
I'll be running the race
Even while I wait

I'm waiting
I'm waiting on You, Lord
And I am peaceful
I'm waiting on You, Lord
Though it's not easy
But faithfully, I will wait

Yes, I will wait
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve You while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting
I will serve you while I'm waiting
I will worship while I'm waiting on You, Lord

--- Song written and sung by John Waller
"While I Wait"

This is where I am ... I am waiting. My life could go in 2 different directions and I'm right in the middle of knowing what is going to happen.
1 direction could be what I desperately want to do: Go to YWAM Denver in the Fall and do their leadership school (Phase 2), possibly go on outreach after the 3 month school, then prayerfully consider becoming a full time missionary with YWAM Denver.
Or the other direction could be: Stay at home, continue to work and serve my church family, save up money to do missions trips to Africa or where ever God leads, invest in friendships and family. With either direction God is behind it. The only way that I could do the 1st direction I mentioned is by God providing a financial miracle. And I'm waiting for that financial miracle, because there is no way that I can physically do to get the money that I need in 5 months.
While I'm waiting ... But patiently I will wait.


Decision # 1


OR


Decision # 2