It’s Only Been an Hour And I Really Miss Her

I just said goodbye to my mom after a wonderful vacation of surprising my cousin for her 25th birthday several days ago. My mom and I had a great time, and much like many vacations we were steadily busy with events (birthday celebrations) and going to  “must go to” stores. I was really blessed. However, I have realized that I am homesick and have been for quite some time. I miss sleeping in my own room, my own bed, with my dog, and having more than enough quality time with my mom and dad. Therefore, this trip was not long enough for mom-daughter time. My mom is one of my best friends and I really appreciate her, even the times when she calls me out or says mother-like things. Such as, “Don’t forget to…” and things like that. But even when she acts like my mom or says things that mom’s say, I still love her and respect her. She has gone through so much in her life, of which several things I have learned from. She is a great mom and always tried to do what was best for me. It’s only been an hour since her flight took off, but I really miss her.

Sometimes I wish I had more than enough money to know what to do with, because I would plan weekend visits to see one another or to go places, just me and her. But I don’t have that much money right now, but maybe one day I will.   

I love my mom! She’s the best mom (and only mom)
I’ve ever had!

You Think You Are Dreaming Big, Dream Bigger With God

For the past 6 weeks, God has been challenging me to think larger and to dream bigger. So, I have been thinking about my future and asking myself questions like, What would I do if I had a lot of money? And If I could do anything in the world, what would I do and why? At first I felt selfish and thought that I shouldn't be thinking so lavishly. But when I asked God about it, I believe He was saying that the things I want to do are not selfish and that I was created for great things. And when I really thought about it my life would be somewhat different, but my passions for bringing people closer to God and inspiring them in truth remains the same. Maybe one day God will bless me with a platform to speak truth and inspire people much like the popular NFL player, Tim Tebow .Or maybe one day I will be working a minimum wage job with what appears to be little influence. It doesn't matter to me as long as I am being obedient to the things God is asking of me. Another things that I have been thinking about is the fact that recently people have told me that I am being a good steward of the things God has given me; which makes me think of this scripture and wonder what other things will God have me be in charge of.


“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!’ - Matthew 25:23 NIV


Again I ask myself, If I could do anything in the world, what would I do and why?


Sometimes when I begin to think of "my dream job", having a nice house with little to no bills, and having the privilege of speaking truth to thousands of people - I become awestruck thinking Really? Me? No, someone else can do a better job or communicate things better. But why not? Why not me? If that's how God will use me, then so be it. If God wants to use my life in such a enormous way, then let it be. Why should fear of failure, or fear of not communicating effectively get in the way? WHY NOT?! This makes me think of the life of Moses, who led thousands of people out of Egypt (a place filled with many lies and injustices) with a speech impediment. If God used Moses, why not use someone else like me? I don't have a speech impediment, but I do struggle when stressed or under pressure to communicate clearly. With every opposing question that comes in my mind, I realize more and more that it's only a lie. A lie to get me to not walk in the fullness of who God created me to be. However, I will not succumb to these lies. I will not settle for anything less than my best. I will live my life humbly and obediently for God and only Him, no matter how big or small the platform may be. 

Christmas 2008 - A Cherished Memory

Playing Apples to Apples at the Rossman Family Christmas

This Christmas is a cherished memory, because the past 2 years I have been away doing missionary training schools with YWAM and also it's is the 1st Christmas I've been content with being single (ever)!

My nieces shouting "PRESENTS!" right before we begin to hand them out.

I cherished the little things and especially the big things. However, I didn't like the frequent weather changes and terrible road conditions that led up to Christmas day.

After the Ice Storm 1 week before Christmas

This Christmas I got everything and more that I was hoping for and the best thing about it was that I was financially able to get everyone in my immediate family the gifts they wanted.

The ornament I got for my dad (not the only gift)

I tried my hardest to cherish every single memory this holiday season because I have no idea where or what I will be doing for the following years to come.

I love sitting by the fire in the fireplace around the Holidays!

Summer Blessing of 2008

I have been so blessed this year and so privileged to do many new and exciting things. This summer surprised me the most. I expected now that I was out of the YWAM community that my life would become dull and uneventful. But God blessed me and at the same time that He was blessing me, He allowed me to be a blessing to others.

Here's how I have been blessed this Summer:

May

• I flew to Colorado and visited my friends in YWAM Denver for a week.
  
  
  
  
• 2 of my good friends from Madison came down and spent a 3 day weekend with me.
  
  
  
  
• I went to a Rodeo with my mom and dad in a near by town.
  
  

June

• I went to my 1st Chicago Cubs Game at Wrigley Field (also my 1st MLB game) with my dad (early Father's Day gift) and we got free hats!
  
  
  
  
• I got to catch up with a childhood friend.
  
  
  
  
• Went to Kid's Church camp for the 2nd year in a row as a Cabin Leader.
  
  
  
  
• My Uncle from California came and visited for 10 days.
  
  

July

• I went to my cousins Softball Championship Tournament (she's the pitcher).
  
  
  
  
• Went to a Black and White Ball with my mom for an annual MaryKay rewards banquet.
  
  
  
  
• I went with a friend and her kids to Springfield for the day of fun, history, education, and a train ride.
  
  
• I went to Chicago with 2 my friends that I did SOW with.
  
  

August

• I went on a road trip to San Francisco for a friends wedding with a friend from Oregon. She drove and picked up me and new friend. Then we drove all the way to San Francisco and I flew back home. We stopped in Iowa, Colorado, Nevada (camped at The Valley of Fire), Long Beach, CA - where I saw my aunt and uncle, then San Francisco!
  
  
  
• I got to spend time with my Aunt and Uncle from New Mexico along with my other relatives from the Mid-West.
  
  
  
• I got a car for a $1!
  
  
  
• I went to my 1st Circus with a friend from High School.
  

WOW! I was so blessed this summer! :-)